I can't even begin to explain the jolt and impact of strength and
clarity I've received this past week. It's been dang hard, but God knows
what WE need. Of course we aren't out here to find out what WE need. We
are out here to help other find what THEY need. But in return we truly
find out how much God truly desires for US to find Him just as much as
the people we teach. We had Zone Training this last week and I got to do
some training. I LOVED it! I needed that! I am going to be honest. I
have never wanted to come home from my mission until this last week.
It's been HARD. And I haven't been as positive, or kind, or as grateful
as I should be. I've definitely learned a lot about myself this
transfer. It's cool how I learn something completely different each
transfer. Last transfer my testimony was strengthened more than ever.
God knew I needed that to get through this transfer. Being a missionary,
a representative of Christ, this is real life! We are inviting people
to the live in the presence of God eternally.
Now for some funny stories. On Saturday, Sister
Wilding and I decided we really need to do service, and we were dang
sick of finding all day. And it happened to be nice outside. (Speaking
of, we made up a rap ... I'll tell you about that later) So we went to a
random door and asked if we could do some service for him by cleaning
out his gutters. He was extremely confused at the fact that we just
wanted to do service. No "catch". He figured out we were Mormon and
proceeded to tell us how we were wasting our lives away. He said our
core beliefs are true, and we are some of the nicest people. But he said
he had "been there and back", that there is a God and there is a
Christ, but no Joseph Smith. Long story short, we were HIGHLY offended
by his language and what he told us. But that experience just led me to
an awesome personal study the next morning! I read in Doctrine &
Covenants. Basically God is only going to show us what we are prepared
to receive! AND this Friday we go to the Temple! It's going to be a
special one.
All in all, I'm hanging on every day. Endure right?
It means to have a brightness of hope as President Hanks explains it. It
may be hard in the moment, but it's worth it in the eternities.
And for those Hot Rod fans, I feel like a war eagle.
.. not like an Auburn fan, because I prefer elephants, but really I
have more strength and a stronger testimony than I sometimes realize.
And it's only through the Atonement of Jesus Christ that that is made
possible.
Love y'all,
Sister Reyne
I'm out of control. I don't know.